My revelation of the week was that our thoughts control our emotions, not the other way around.
I was listening to a podcast the other day about how our emotions are a reflection of our thoughts. The host said that all of our emotions start with a thought first and then become an emotion. This really struck me. I guess I never saw it that way. I always thought that all of my negative thoughts were what made me feel crummy on my off days. It really hurts to know that most of my unhappiness during my depression was something that could have been prevented if I could have changed my thought.
When I gave my life to God He finally helped my depression begin to fade and I always wondered how it happened. I know nothing is too hard for God, But I am the kind oof person who likes to ask questions. That is the reason why for so long I was not a believer. When I was young growing up in a catholic family I was an inquisitive little girl. I wanted to know everything no details left out but whenever I would ask any questions nobody would want to answer or try to explain things to me. I was supposed to just have blind faith otherwise, I would be disrespecting God by asking questions. This caused me to stop believing in God for a long time.
Now that I have let God back into my life I want to understand as much as I can so if my kids ever have any questions I could answer them the best I can.
So back to the emotion conversation. It was such an eye opener to know that our thoughts drive our emotions. during the worst point in my depression, I remember thinking how I had no value, I had no purpose, I thought I was a terrible wife and mother and I thought all my efforts were in vain. These thoughts drove me into a dark scary time in my life I began to feel hopeless, useless, and a burden on others. I began to think everyone might be better off without me.
I finally decided to let God into my life as a last resort. I began to Heal from my pain. I began to gain some confidence and started feeling better about myself.
How did my feelings change from being so dark to full of hope and life? God began to help me get a new outlook on life. He helped me change my thoughts from negative to positive and as a result, my emotions became positive and I began to feel happy.
I would love to say I never have off days anymore but I would be lying. It is great to know that if I just start my morning with God in my mind and pray that I can have positive thoughts during the day so that I can feel happy during the day.